Listening to a beautiful remix by Black Coffee of a Billie Eilish song CHIHRO really does open up a door. A beautiful, emotional ride of memories from my last relationship. After this Spotify Wrapped release for the year, I’ve decided sad songs are a no-go from now on. No more depressing, break up music. Only empowering songs, happy vibes and good feels. It’s enough with the tears, the memories from two years of love, growth and pain. There’s a cold breeze on my shoulder, a chip, an insecurity that I feel I’ve been carrying. But what are you, if you’re not insecure about something? So here we are. Open door, writing freely, editing as we go. You never really ‘find yourself,’ there’s not really a magical day where that happens. It’s all a journey, and I am here for the ride. It’s bumpy, but life goes on.
And the bass keeps running, and running, and running. Another great song from the Black Eyed Peas. Can you guess what it is? Let’s Get It Started. Music is such a great outlet - to dance, move, sing, run. Lately I’ve been running lots, I’m at 6min/km and that was for 3km’s running which is a massive difference to where I was three months ago. Running is one of my favourite things - it’s a full on part of my identity now. A fabulous skin care routine at night is also who I am. As well as baking muffins, reading, and selling at markets.
Gosh, over a year ago I sold at a market in Sydney, Au and the breeze was so heavy it flew my whole table of jewellery into the sand below. I swore never to sell jewellery at a market again. And yet last month, there I was - selling in Edenvale, Johannesburg South Africa - giving it another shot! It’s so nerve-wracking but it really gets you out your comfort zone. Solution-oriented, calm, cool, collected. That is what you learn for sure.
The trick is to have heavy stands, I use lots of wood (cheese boards, jewellery boxes etc.) and not light little jewellery tree stands from Temu. I learned that the hard and embarrassing way. Make your own stands, design a beautiful fairytale forest out of wood. It’s the best way! You can check out mine for inspo.
A bumpy breeze, I said. You take my breath away, you said. What a romantic novel my life was these past 2.5 years. No Bad Vibes, that’s another really great song. I wish I could attach songs to this post, perfect for Spotify Wrapped week. I keep telling myself to stay positive, positive vibes only. It’s hard, but there’s an opportunity around every corner. Just when you think you’ve lost everything, you realise the world is actually your oyster and there’s so much ahead when you start again. What did my friend say to me years ago? You never know what’s around the corner. Truly. It could be good or bad, so buckle up for the bumpy ride. No Bad Vibes by Jazzy & KILIMANJARO - what a total sum up for my outlook on life right now.
Stay positive, brighter things are coming!
Warmest
Jessica xxx
